| Whoa....update |
[28 Aug 2006|08:46pm] |
DUUUUUUUDE LIVEJOURNAL!?
haha i was bored so i felt i should update! how fun. I didnt do my annual schedule post, and im not going to because its lame. I miss lj, myspace is too controling, but thats ok b/c i do not intend to delete my myspace, even though i should. Schools pretty good, lifes pretty good. and most importantly...MY BIRTHDAY IS IN A WEEK. hooray!
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[23 Apr 2006|06:15pm] |
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ROSENCRANTZ AND GUILDENSTERN ARE DEAD IS GOING TO AUSTIN FOR STATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! W00T!!!!!!
everything is parfait...except for school, i dislike school. ah well
8D
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[09 Apr 2006|01:43am] |
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Wow could this weekend GET any better?
its been amazing...and not to mention ROSENCRANTZ AND GUILDENSTERN ARE DEAD ADVANCED!!!!!!
w00t.
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[02 Apr 2006|05:36pm] |
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ahhh yay. i feel very accomplished and happy. Well the not so exciting knews first...we got second at the di state competition which means were goign to globals....i dont care how much of a nerd that makes me...i beat people and that makes me happy
and to the mroe exciting news...ROSENCRANTZ AND GUILDENSTERN ADVANCED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yay!
so, next saturday. tomball highschool. 6 pm. $5. be there. 8).
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[30 Mar 2006|07:51pm] |
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Rosencrantz and Guildenstern. Friday. 5:00. Cy Ridge. $5. Be there. Please?
yeah so definately go its going to be AMAZING!
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[16 Mar 2006|09:40pm] |
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Ok, i hate having to ask ppl to listen to my problems so im going to give you the option, i need someone to talk to but i dont know who so if you have no interest or you think im doing this because im fishing for compliments, just dont read this.
well apparently im a "dissapointment" to someone who's supposed to love me no matter what....so much for that. I suppose i knew he felt like that but hearing it voiced hurts a little more than i thought it would. The whole reason i got into theatre and the reason i wanted to make the play was so i would have something to say for myself, and obviously it wasn't enough. i know im not as perfect as my sisters but i dont think i should have to be compared to them. i didnt do anythign wrong they just, did something better. Where did i go? i miss the old me, i miss not being so vendictive to everyone, i miss being a good kid, im not the same as i was last year, let alone 2 or 3 years before that. i need something to change, but after hearing that im a failure, i now no longer have anything to strive for, i feel like im just a lost cause, but before last night i really didnt think i was that crappy of a person. hmmph, and you think you know a person.
say what you will about me, i dont care anymore, i just hope someone will be willing to talk to me, and if not, i guess i just wont be too suprised
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[15 Mar 2006|09:30pm] |
man where did i go?
freaking ides of march.....making everyone crappy
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[14 Feb 2006|08:26pm] |
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GUESS FREAKIN' WHAT GUYS!?
HAPPY ENTRY TIME!
bahaha yeah. So, i definately love my mommy. She was my valentine today, along with some other ppl. But she got me candy...which included FUN DIP....YES....and she got me money too which isnt half bad 8) And my grandma got me a card that said..."knock knock" "whos there" "olive" "olive who?" "olive you very much!" AHHHH bahaha hurry for mother figures. My other grandmas card is in the mail. SAdly my dad's in Miami and i miss him because i haven't seen him since thursday, and im in a very good mood and i would like him to see that cause i think hes worried about me? Anywho, it was a good day...WITH AMAZING CHEESECAKE, thanks to kels, cause she loves me. duh. 8)
happy v-day!
and v is used for virgin so really
happy virgin day guys!
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[05 Feb 2006|12:00am] |
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hmmph everything is kinda just fallen apart.
grades are kinda slipping and im struggling to try and make a high b in one class.....damn
i guess im just angry at myself. i dont really know why i cant just move the fuck on. i feel like everyone is just passing me up, maturing, finding things out and im too busy being stuck in the past and living on small insignificant hopes for the future that are becoming less and less grounded.
there are so many things that i want to know but i cant and its killing me.
ew valentines day is coming up...thatll be extra super fun. just another day to remind me of everything i dont have. and i know things could be worse, i know i could lose a parent or something like that (there is a reason im saying that btw) and i know it sounds like im just being over dramatic and greedy but i cant really help i feel i suppose.
lkfdvkljnfkvnjkljfnvkljnfklvjnkjfnvjnfdjvnoaisndcopijwtuhpjndckvansdj nakljsdnflkjansdckjnasdc
that was me screaming.
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[22 Jan 2006|01:14pm] |
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once again im depressed. nobody really even reads this but i need to vent and no one it online to vent to! HMMPH
well im sick and tired of having these weird mood swings, one day im perfectly happy and the next im really sad and i dont get why, its not like anything happens to make me sad i just become it. i dont get why this is so hard for me, i should be over it by now but im not and i hate it. ive tried to get it through my head that im being retarded and over dramatic...but that didnt really work. i want 8th grade back, i want happiness back and i want to not be so effected by this!its been like 2 months, i wish i could just move on.
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[20 Jan 2006|03:21pm] |
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it's her hair and her eyes today
that just simply take me away
and the feeling that i'm falling further in love
makes me shiver but in a good way
all the times i have sat and stared
as she thoughtfully thumbs through her hair
and she purses her lips, bats her eyes as she plays,
with me sitting there slack-jawed and nothing to say
coz i love her with all that i am
and my voice shakes along with my hands
coz she’s all that I see and she’s all that I need
and i'm out of my league once again
it's a masterful melody when she calls out my name to me
as the world spins around her she laughs, rolls her eyes
and i feel like i'm falling but it's no surprise
coz i love her with all that i am
and my voice shakes along with my hands
cause it's frightening to be swimming in this strange sea
but i'd rather be here than on land
yes she's all that i see and she's all that i need
and i'm out of my league once again
it's her hair and her eyes today
that just simply take me away
and the feeling that i'm falling further in love
makes me shiver but in a good way
all the times i have sat and stared
as she thoughtfully thumbs through her hair
and she purses her lips, bats her eyes as she plays,
with me sitting there slack-jawed and nothing to say
coz i love her with all that i am
and my voice shakes along with my hands
cause it's frightening to be swimming in this strange sea
but i'd rather be here than on land
yes she's all that i see and she's all that i need
and i'm out of my league once again
baha! ive never made an entry of simply lyrics. GO ME. haha ah well.
i have good news! Things seem to be going pretty well for me and i dont really know why i think that and why im happy but whatever im sticking with it. the only thing im afraid of is getting my hopes way too high up and im pretty sure itll happen but oh well. chases are always fun i suppose.
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[01 Jan 2006|01:07pm] |
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what the hell did i do my god. How anyone can be friends with me is beyond me. i never meant to hurt you and i know that doesnt mean a god damned thign coming out of my mouth right now but its the truth. i am so sorry and i feel so incredibly awful and i know i should. you never did anythign to hurt me and i repay you like this, god im such an ass hole and im so fuckign sorry, please if you can find it in you, forgive me, im so so so so sorry.
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| goodbye 2005 |
[31 Dec 2005|12:26am] |
well i thought i might as well be a loser and say goodbye to 2005 with a nice commentary.
All and all 2005 was a very very good year, my favorite so far...w00t. New years last year was probably that start of the perfection and total happiness that lasted for a very long time. I got closer to alot of old friends which is good and ive met new ones this year too, which is better. and although it didnt end up as i imagined, it doesnt take away from all the good things about the year...which FAR out weigh the bad...so thats good. hopefully 2006 can match up.
w00t. goodbye 2005!
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[15 Dec 2005|05:31pm] |
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Only one person will get this but maybe it would be better if i leave, everyone seems so depressed lately, maybe its best to get away
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[11 Dec 2005|06:00pm] |
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Hmmph i hate feeling like this. I know its bad to, but i cant help thinking back to eigth grade and thinking back to how happy i used to be. I was so much closer to all my friends, and a lot of them have grown apart from me, and it makes me sad. Things were so much easier then. Looking back on all my lj entries makes me really sad, and i know its not good to look back on them cause itll just make things worse, but its hard. I hate sounding depressed and everything, i really do, and im not just writing this entry to get sympathy or anything like that, this is just the easiest way to just let things out, because i tend to bottle everything up inside of me, which i know is also not good. i hope the rest of this year goes by fast, i mean i know i've made alot of new upperclassmen friends and stuff, but i am just ready to go to woods. i also wish this holiday season goes by quickly too, i want to get it all over with. i hate not knowing about the future. i hate not knowing how things will turn out, and i hate dwelling on things too, which is sort of ironic seeing as i'm writing this entry, ah well though. Finals are next week which means christmas break is almost here, yay/boo! On a brighter note, however, i will get to go to dallas this break, and i heart dallas. well if anyone even reads this, im sorry for the very lengthy entry and the pesimism of it all, but sometimes these things just have to come out.
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yeah, again here i am apologizing. It was rash for me to post without talking about this with you, and for that i'm sorry.
on a lighter note, i had a pretty good thanksgiving, i got to hang out wiht two of my sisters and my brother, thats right, i have a brother. almost. w00t!
oh and my dogs a shithead....he ran off and i had to chase him in the woods, which are very very dense, i have about a gazillion cuts from thorns and a couple from having to crawl under barbed wire...yay!
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[21 Nov 2005|11:15pm] |
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well i honestly did not think it was going to be this hard, but it is. I really hope i do something fun this break, cause im really bored and not having the greatest time. hmmph, hooray for more depressing entries. oh well just thought i might update cause im really bored and have nothing else to do
happy thanksgiving
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[10 Nov 2005|06:41pm] |
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well things are very strange. There seems to be a general consensus of sadness and depression in the air, and i don't know why. And this really is everybody. Its not the same as it was last year, or even at the beginning of this year. everyones afraid of it but i think its actually upon us: things are changing with everyone.
i love you
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[05 Nov 2005|11:46am] |
forget the earlier entry
im sorry kelsey
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[10 Aug 2005|03:47pm] |
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Well today was my first day of school. Most of my classes are filled with huge nerds but i still have friends. I had a good day but some reason i came home feeling flustered. ah well im looking forward to tommorow and hopefully it will be a much better day than today was.
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